Christmas Blessings  / Jo-Ann ~. Mom Of Angel Lauren Pacenta (Connected by angels )

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Christmas without you  / Cindy Stuart (Friend of family )
David the holidays will never be the same for your family. I know this is a very difficult time for them all as our family continues to go through it every year. Your mom and I share special moments and thoughts about you and Cory and how much we have in common now. Unfortunatly this is something we wish we didn't have in common. During the holiday season your name may or may not be mentioned but I know you will be on everyones mind. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers during this time. You could not be in a more beautiful place at this time. I hope Cory will share this time with you too. You will be greatly missed and forever loved. Close

PRECIOUS DAVID AND YOUR LOVED ONES  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT

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Saturday / Sara (sister)

David, Saturday is my birthday and I am finally going to catch up with you in age again.  David, we will be the same age again, but this time it is way different...this time...this time it will last a whole year...then I am going to pass you up.  It is not suppose to be like this...I am not suppose to pass you up.  One month is all this is suppose to last.

Well, Saturday I am going out to the bar.  I am going to where you took me to the bar for the very first time.  Remember that night David?  I had so much fun and even more I was very grateful my brother was there to celebrate it with me.  You were always there for me and now, well, I guess I hope and wish you still are but I can't see that you are.  You are not going to be able to go out with me this weekend David.  I am going to the bar to celebrate my birthday and also to celebrate you.  I cherish all the time I was able to spend with you.  That night meant alot to me.  

Remember how you drove my car instead of yours...it was because you knew what was going to happen.  You told me not to close my eyes but I sure didn't listen very good did I?  David, you even cleaned my car out for me that night.  You didn't have to do that, and I am sure it was probably extremely gross.  Yet, you still did it, you did it for me.  

This birthday I'm not going to get a glass snowman from you.  I guess my collection is complete.  I have quite a few, but I always enjoyed getting more.  I still have yet to get them put out.  I am scared to put them out...scared they might get broken.  I don't know that I would know how to handle that if they broke.  

David, I miss you so much.  You are the best big brother anyone could ask for.  You have always been there for me and I am hoping that you will continue to do so. 

My life is hard and rough right now, I got a new job so that should hopefully help things out but then again also scary, I hope I made the right choice.  

I know you are aware of the troubles I have been dealing with, I hope you are holding my hand through everything.  There is one thing I would really like your help on.  Not sure if you can help but I need to talk to you about it.  I need to know your thoughts on it.  David, I love you and miss you and need you.  Please come and visit often, I will be waiting.  

Love you always and forever!!!!!

Sara :o)

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Happy Thanksgiving  / Chris (Sister)
Happy Thanksgiving Brother!  I miss you so much and I have been thinking about you all day.  Thank you for coming to me in my dream last night. I have been reflecting and praying about that dream all day and I think what it meant is that you are happy.  Please continue to pray for us and we continue on with out you.  Dad was right, we are like a five spoke wheel with one spoke missing we just can't make it down the road so smooth.  
Love you so much.  
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Happy Angel Thanksgiving Angel  / Anthony's Mom (Friend)




Happy Angel Thanksgiving Angel.  Parying for your family Marcia.  Thanks for the kinds words on my Son's site.
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SWEET DAVID,THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR LOVING FAMILY,  / ROSE GRMA TO ANGEL BRITTANY SYFERT

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Happy Thanksgiving  / Susan (connected by angels )

        FROM THE FAMILY OF KURTIS CLEAVER

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Autumn Greetings  / Dana Abdelhadi

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Halloween / Sara (Sister)
David, its Halloween time again.  I wanted to go to a haunted house but never made it there this year.  Remember how scared you were of haunted houses.  I will never forget when we took Grant to the haunted house.  I felt bad, he cried the whole way.  Remember our first trip to Mystery Manor with Aunt Carol and Uncle Geoff.  You and Chris both pissed your pants...not me (only cause I was under Aunt Carols jacket the whole time).  That was so fun!  I remember that one year.  You got the front yard at mom's house all scary and you and who was there with you?  Michael B I think...and you guys were dressed up and scared all the kids.   

I love you David and I miss you very much.  Tyler is a transformer this year and Derek is wearing Tyler's old Monsters Inc. costume.  They are so cute. 

Did you watch the tooth fairy come to our house?  Tyler is missing his two front top teeth.  I guess we all know what he wants for Christmas this year...lol.  I am sure you would be hear teasing him about them being gone.  

David, I miss you and love you very much!  

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CRUISING IN HEAVEN  / Lisa Niedzwiecki (Friend)
David I was thinking of you the other day and a strange thought popped into my head. I pictured you and GOD driving around on clouds in an old Malibu. It sounds crazy,but the picture seemed so real. I hope that is what heavens like for you because I know you are not the flying with wings type, you'd rather being crusing. Mark and I think of you often and miss you tons. Keep looking over your family they miss you more than you could ever know. 
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Six Months  / Chris (Sister)
David, I can’t believe you have been gone for six months. It seems like such a long time to have lived with out you and yet it seems like yesterday that you were pouring juice for me at the Easter dinner table or poking at my pregnant tummy. Sometimes I feel like we can’t go on with out you but we still have so much here to live for. I know you would really get a kick out of Carly and Eli. Eli looks just like a little Sam. I am sure you are watching over them but my heart is just broke because they will never know you.
I called you six months ago today but I didn’t know I was too late. What if I had called only fifteen or twenty minutes earlier? Would you still be with us? I know that you know we all loved you and would be here for anything you needed but I guess your pain was just too great. I am glad that you are at peace now even though we would rather have you here. Please continue to pray for us through this healing process. I love you so much. You were the best brother ever.
p.s. the caprice is in the garage so even if I didn’t already think about you all the time I have a constant reminder of my beloved brother. We’ll take care of the car for you.. LOVE YOU
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Six long lonely months  / Mom
Dearest Dave, I can't believe it's been six months.  Memories and longings for you are with me every day.  So much has happened since you left us and with each happy moment a sadness is also there because you aren't here to share it with us.  

I tell myself that I am being selfish.  I should be rejoicing instead because you are no longer hurting and you are in such a beautiful place...and I do...but I still wait for your call or for you to pull up in the drive.  

There is so much that I want to say but I just can't put them in words.

You are and always will be my favorite son.

It's all good.

Love you, Mom
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The Shoes I Wear  / Mom
I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in other's eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try to walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so that they don't hurt quite so much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think
about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
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Thanks for the "Hello!"  / Sara (Sister)

Today I went to McDonalds.  I was going there for ice cream for my family, Chris and Carly.  When I pulled up to the window to get our ice cream they had asked if I would pull forward and wait.  The manager was going to bring the ice cream out to us when it was done.  I have never had to pull up and wait at McDonalds before but it didn't really bother me.  When the manager came out he handed me our ice cream and I happened to notice his name badge.  On his name badge it read, "David."  David I don't know if that was a sign from you or not telling me hello and that you are still around watching over us.  But I sure took it as one.  I love you and I thank you very much for that today, I really needed it! 

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I have been touched....  / Ann Dobies -. Granny 2. Adam Lutz
Reading your story about David is humbling and beautiful. David seemed to a be a caring and sensitive man, who probably dreamed that he would one day win his battle with the adversaries in his mind. And, I'm not sure that he didn't win the battle as well as the war, because I believe that God has mercy on all of us, most of all with those who have demons who can do damage to our souls, and so I see this as a release, a new lease on life, and not just an escape because of a weakness in a person. David is safely home with our Heavenly Father, where he is at peace, and has found the ultimate happiness of being in his heavenly home. 

We may not understand why, but then we aren't supposed to know everything, but God knew why, and he took him home. I don't think God allowed this to punish anyone, nor did David take his life to punish anyone, but to be free of his demons. Most likely, he would like for all of you to gain some peace by the mere fact that he is no longer hurting, no longer having to smile when he felt like crying, no longer having to deal with a pain that I am sure is indescribable to those who have never contemplated suicide, and most of all, he would want you to know that he has found a peace that surpasses all understanding. 

Thank you for sharing David's story with all of us. I pray that you will find peace, and continue to have signs from David to let you know that he is watching over you, and that he is happy now. 

  Keeping you in my prayers, 

  Ann Dobies

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Uncle Dude, Dude, Little Dude and Littlest Dude  / Aunt Julie
David,   

In mid September I was talking to Tyler and I called him "Little Dude".  He said, "I'm not little dude, that's Derek."  

Okay, "If you're not "Little Dude" who are you?".  

His reply, "I'm Dude."

I guess we now have Uncle Dude, Dude, Little Dude & Littlest Dude.
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Talking to Eli?  / Chris (Sister)
The other day I was laying with Eli trying to get him to go to sleep and I was talking to him about his Uncle Dude.  I can't remember exactly what I said but in a little prayer to David I asked him to talk to Eli.  A couple seconds later Eli smiled.  I noticed it and said "David did you make him smile, that was cool, do it again." (or something  like that.)   A couple seconds and he smiled again.   It had to have been David talking to him.  David you are the best brother anyone could ask for.  
Love you, Please continue to stay close to us all. 
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